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"TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440" (TheMythIsReality)
02/26/2014 at 00:15 • Filed to: None

Possible double post, thanks Denton.

Guys and gals of Oppo, I'm rarely ever here anymore. But tonight, I don't know where else to go. My friend killed herself yesterday. I've been staring at a screen all day, dazed. This is a new kind of hurt for me, one I don't like.

Please, please, please, if you need help, give someone your hand. If you think someone needs help, give them your hand. No one should be alone. Remember, you mean the world to someone whether you know it or not. And we all go through dark times; God knows I've had my share. But you can get to the light, and you don't have to make that journey alone.

DISCUSSION (8)

Leadbull > TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440
02/26/2014 at 00:42

I'm sorry, man. A couple of people I was acquainted with killed themselves, but no one I was super close to... I can't imagine what that's like.

TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440 > Leadbull
02/26/2014 at 11:34

Thanks. This is the first suicide this close to me since I was a very young kid, and even though that one was actually even more of a surprise it wasn't as bad since it was my dad's friend who was in his late 50s. Not saying his life was worth any less, but this girl was only in her 20s which is entirely too young no matter how she died. I thought she was doing better.

Leadbull > TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440
02/26/2014 at 11:56

It's always a surprise. The people who get to that point are usually very good at bottling up problems and keeping them inside. One of the guys I knew was always very fun to be around. It really was a shock to everyone, especially since we were only in middle school.

TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440 > Leadbull
02/26/2014 at 15:03

Very true. Terrible that someone killed themselves in middle school, although the only time I even came close to it (other than when meds made me crazy, thankfully I recognized the signs in myself that time) was in middle school. And no one knew, although that was the thing that made me seek help.

Leadbull > TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440
02/26/2014 at 16:36

Well, I'm glad you got out of that situation!

I've never had suicidal thoughts myself, but middle school was the suckiest part of my life so far... sixth grade in particular was misery.

TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440 > Leadbull
02/28/2014 at 00:31

Sixth sucked for me as well, mostly cause I took it twice!

I didn't figure out til the end of the second year of 6th that I was massively depressed, and that's why I had been skipping school and sleeping through it when I did show up. I got help for the depression but never recovered academically. Then in the fall of 2012 I started PTSD treatment for a bad wreck I was in and the antidepressant I was prescribed, Celexa, just all of a sudden one night had me completely thinking irrationally. Thankfully I know myself well enough to know that while I am sometimes depressed, I'm not one to be suicidal and definitely not now that I have a kid, so I flushed what was left in the bottle and got put on something else. I'd honestly thought the whole antidepressants-leading-to-suicide thing was exaggerated but that night taught me different.

Leadbull > TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440
02/28/2014 at 00:41

I don't like taking drugs, period. They rarely help my symptoms, and always put me out of it.

I'd rather be in pain than be in a little less pain with nausea and drowsiness on top.

TheMyth Is Swingin' A 440 > Leadbull
03/03/2014 at 09:45

I wish it was that simple for me anymore. I used to not take much more than Tylenol, but then I got hurt and without my pain meds I can't even get out of bed. And without my psych meds I can't sleep. It gets old really quick, having your life tied to medicine. So yeah I fully understand not wanting them and as long as you can avoid them, do so. It may be helping me have a life now but it certainly can't be extending that life; it sometimes feels like poison.