Super Depressing Personal News

"Z (ND + Cancer Fighter)" (roadsterzach) 06/05/2018 at 17:06 • Filed to: None

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Just got back from my doctor’s appointment. I am now officially not allowed to drive anymore as they are putting me on constant, higher strength pain meds. There is a debate as to whether to continue my chemo or not. Newest scan shows progression, so I am now considered a terminal cancer patient.

They said optimistically I have about 2-4 months left in me, and it won’t be a pleasant last few months. This is my fourth Oncologist and he has tried the hardest to do everything to save me. Honestly, I have no idea how to deal with this and everything feels numb. Venting online because I don’t have the heart to tell my friends and social circle yet. Going to have to take the roadsters out for one last drive tonight.

I don’t even know what to do anymore.

daender > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:25

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Live life to its fullest. Travel to the car shows/races/concerts/etc. that you’ve always wanted to attend. Do a track day in one of the roadsters if you decide to get off the pain meds for a short time. Burn as damn bright as long as you can.

Attend Radwood?

MonkeePuzzle > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:26

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well shit. I dont know what to do either, but if you figure it out, and it’s something the oppo community can help with, feel free to ask us,

Nibby > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:28

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do anything you always wanted to do
try not to be negative, what would that do
maybe embrace your fate and stay positive, who knows, maybe that positivity could keep you going for longer

that being said, surround yourself with those you love and are close to.

atfsgeoff > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:30

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Time table’s moved up, gotta get working on the “fuck it bucket”

Go skydiving, run with the bulls, eat some ghost peppers, build flamethrowers of questionable quality...

nermal > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:32

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Dammit. That’s horrible news. I’m sorry to hear that.

Cancer, and the treatment for it, is nasty stuff.

Don’t do anything one last time - Do what makes you happy, and make peace with everything in your life. At the same time, don’t give up on getting better and living out a long, fulfilling life. Many a doctor has been wrong before. I’m rooting for you. :-)

Chan - Mid-engine with cabin fever > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:34

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I’m sorry to see that the first revelation of your illness is already telling us of your limited time left with us. I’ve enjoyed reading about your unusual garage fleet.

Please do all the things that you’ve wanted to do and let us know if we can help you do so in any way.

Nothing but the best wishes for your time here and then on the other side.

Jake - Has Bad Luck So You Don't Have To > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:37

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Damn. This is sobering news. I remember when we bantered in the comments section about the pros and cons of the MX5 and 124 and you mentioned wanting to have a laugh before things got worse... didn’t expect that I’d be reading this post.

The best to you and your family. I hope that the strength of family and friends helps ease you.

davesaddiction @ opposite-lock.com > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:38

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Damn... I’m sorry. Enjoy your last drive, and soak up as much love from and time with the people who are important to you as possible.

BeaterGT > atfsgeoff 06/05/2018 at 17:41

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Burn the tires off the roadsters on tonight’s drive...

Future next gen S2000 owner > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:42

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Skip the meds, go crazy. That’s what I’d do. Hope you can enjoy your days.

Milky > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 17:59

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I hope everything goes as well as it can for you.

Chariotoflove > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:03

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I don’t even know what to say. Quality of life and peace of mind and spirit are the most important things in the time remaining. I hope you have both before the final road trip. God bless.

TheRealBicycleBuck > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:04

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You aren’t gone yet! Live life!

Seriously, try to go out with no regrets.

Mid Engine > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:05

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The doctors gave my brother the same prognosis, he lived another 6 years

E92M3 > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:13

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Holy shit man...Suddenly my day doesn’t seem so bad. I must of missed it, but if u don’t mind me asking what kind of cancer do you have? I’m really sorry, I wish I had some advice for you. Hard to offer any, never being in this situation. I mean, I have a couple things i would do but they aren’t legal, so i won’t encourage anyone else to do them. Maybe find a cancer forum and ask others with the same diagnosis what advice they might have. I did see a story of one mother that recently passed and she had written out birthday cards for her kids for the next 30 years. In each one she shared a special memory that they would probably of forgotten being so young at her time of passing. I’m really sorry, if i can help in any way please let me know.

gmctavish needs more space > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:16

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Jesus that’s tough. There’s nothing I can say really, and I can’t imagine what you’re feeling, but to echo what a couple others have said. Don’t take the doctors estimate as gospel. I know a couple people who for various reasons have been given x amount of time to live, and they’re blown way past that time. I don’t know if that’s helpful to say or not, and I apologize if it isn’t.

Drive the hell out of those things.

Fuck cancer.

DAWRX - The Herb Strikes Back > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:20

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Hey buddy, I’m really sorry to hear these circumstances have befallen you. I cannot even imagine what you’re going through. Just know we’re here for you here on oppo. We’ll do our best to continue to be a support for you.

RallyDarkstrike - Fan of 2-cyl FIATs, Eastern Bloc & Kei cars > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:27

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I’m at a loss of words friend. Please know that if there’s anything we can do for you, don’t hesitate to ask. Surround yourself with friends and loved ones and make the best of life. Doctors have been wrong before, beat the odds!

We’re all here for you...

f86sabre > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 18:42

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Not sure if I can say anything that can help aside from make the most of the time.

Svend > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 19:23

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Oh my God I’m really sorry to hear that.

Live as fullest a life as you can but we all here sincerely hope things do improve and you can prove the doctors wrong.

I really can’t think of what else to say.

CaptDale - is secretly British > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 19:28

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I am very sorry to hear that. I don’t even know what to say other than try to spend time doing what you want to do, but don’t give up. Many have seen the brink and come back.

DipodomysDeserti > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 19:46

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I wish you peace with the time you have left here and whatever awaits you next. I hope you enjoyed the ride.

HondoyotaE38: A Japanese and German Collab...wait a minute > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 20:51

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This hits too close to home. Actually, it hit and destroyed my house. I’m sorry man. Hope things could get better. Hoon your Miata and Fiata and hoon them hard. Best wishes from my family, we know what it’s like.

smobgirl > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/05/2018 at 21:18

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Damn that’s hard to read, so I can’t even imagine how you’re feeling. I hope that drive is the best you’ve had...rack up some moving violations! And please let us know if we can do anything - put our Oppo powers to use to hook you up with some crazy experience or something.

pip bip - choose Corrour > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/06/2018 at 02:33

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fuck cancer!

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > daender 06/06/2018 at 14:59

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Definitely going to do some car shows and concerts the next two months, if I’m able. Thought about attending Radwood as well actually, although being in Sacramento is a turn off and I don’t own my Supras anymore so I’d be going to spectate.

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > atfsgeoff 06/06/2018 at 14:59

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Time table has definitely moved up! I was supposed to be getting married in November, now we’ll have to see…

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > Mid Engine 06/06/2018 at 15:00

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That was my hope going into all of this 20 months ago. Last year I was given 6 months to live at one point before switching Oncologists again. I’ve beaten that six month estimate, but this time it feels like this is actually it. I still want to keep fighting, just not sure how much longer my body is up to the task and medically I’m pretty much out of options.

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > E92M3 06/06/2018 at 15:01

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I have Advanced Metastatic Renal Cell Carcinoma, previously Stage 4 and now Terminal, and it has spread/primarily infected my liver. I’ve been on a few cancer forums, a lot say to travel and spend time with family/friends, and some of them are justifiably jealous that I’ve made it as long as I have. I’m now 20 months into my fight, when most stage 4 MRCC patients don’t make it the first six months, 76% don’t make it the first year and only 7-8% make it past five years; so I’ve had a good fight so far.

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > gmctavish needs more space 06/06/2018 at 15:02

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Thanks for the hopeful outlook, no need to apologize! I generally try not to take the doc’s estimates either, as I’m stubborn and want to continue to fight, but I’ve already blown past a previous doc’s six month estimate and this time things aren’t looking as well. I’ve made it a long time in my fight, I just wish I had more time, even just a year or so. Also, I agree, fuck cancer.

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > HondoyotaE38: A Japanese and German Collab...wait a minute 06/06/2018 at 15:03

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I’m sorry for your loss, cancer is definitely unrelenting and unforgiving. Thank you for the well wishes. Hopefully soon we’ll actually have more effective treatments or cures so that future generations don’t have to deal with this.

E92M3 > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/06/2018 at 22:20

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I’m not sure if you’re religious at all, but when I was a child my grandma told me “the good die young”. Sounded silly, if you want me to behave that’s counter intuitive. I didn’t really think much about it until adulthood. You know what though, she was right. I’ve had a handful of friends, a relative and coworkers die too early in life. I’m talking REALLY good people, people I aspired to be like, people with integrity, different than most other people. Often I would think, “damn, couldn’t it of been someone else?” None of us know for sure what happens when we leave this world, but what if early death was their reward? Lets face it, life on this earth isn’t all that great anyway.

I hope your remaining time is as enjoyable as it can be, and that in your last weeks they can help you be as comfortable as humanly possible.

Spoon II > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 06/07/2018 at 09:32

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Really sorry to hear that! If you need anything at all I’m sure the oppo community will help in any way we can! I can only hope that the docs were wrong with their estimate, and that you get to have all the fun and joy possible!

HondoyotaE38: A Japanese and German Collab...wait a minute > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 08/12/2018 at 16:13

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Not exactly a loss, but my dad’s suffering. Anyways, I know it’s been about two months since this post and comment, but please tell me you’re still around. Oppo wants to hear from you again at least once more, an update even if an unfortunate final one (hopefully a good update though!) I really wish the best for you and your family. If you’re gone and I’m talking to the air, I hope you’re in a better place and we all miss you. If not, then hang in there and best of luck. This really blows man. Also saw you less than a month ago commenting about the new Supra’s price, so that’s some good hope. Till the next time you show up friend. - Best wishes, Hondoyota on behalf of all of Oppositelock and myself

WRXasaurus > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 08/19/2018 at 22:46

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Z, how are you doing today. I was thinking about your fight and just want you to know that your in my prays and thoughts.

Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) > HondoyotaE38: A Japanese and German Collab...wait a minute 09/06/2018 at 18:20

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Still somehow around and kicking. I lurk Oppo on my phone mostly and my old laptop is the only way onto my account here (its a burner I never saved the code for), so when the laptop wants to work I’ll post. Still fighting as best I can, went against the Dr’s wishes and stayed on all my meds - trying to get into an experimental trial. Some things have improved, others gotten much worse. My body keeps telling to just give up the fight but I just can’t for some reason, doesn’t seem worth it to not try.

I’ve made it 3 months into their 2-4 month estimate though, so I’ve got that going for me.

HondoyotaE38: A Japanese and German Collab...wait a minute > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 09/07/2018 at 11:52

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hang in there man, you can do it. keep fighting and experimenting if it’s good for you. update as frequently as possible. I’m with you all the way to the end buddy. I wish the best t o you and your family.

pip bip - choose Corrour > Z (ND + Cancer Fighter) 09/21/2018 at 21:22

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any updates?

just  checking in....